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a chilly day in twenty eighteen
im feelin like i just woke up
took a breath of forest air
and to tried to calm my churning gut
there's a itching nagging feeling
like i left the oven on
and I'm trying to unpack it all
but my confidence is gone
seeking meaning in the storm clouds
getting swept up in my fears
a ray of starlight parts the overcast
but you cannot stop these tears
and it's wild that you exist
and i know we're having fun
but i need to crawl away
under the sheets and wonder
if i were to stop myself
and just daydream all day
would i improve at all
or would i just worry if
i should just stop myself
and just daydream all day
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dream
01:18
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its so surreal that i get to spend time with you
i've got this energy inside me, you're magnetic through and through
coalescing fears dissipate my self-esteem
my mind's still repeating your name
im enraptured by this dream
i dont want it to be over
i dont wanna wake up yet
feeling like im on a rollercoaster
when i hit the bottom
will i have no regrets?
and im falling
down this hill with you
am i dreaming?
oh, its all of you
my mind is screaming
tell me does yours scream too?
ill stay dreaming
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truth
01:50
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the truth about me is
im not gonna lie to you
ill mean every thing i say
im gonna listen and i'll take notes
try to remember what it was i wrote
im gonna try real hard to not destroy myself with jealousy
i'm the perfect date
we're so perfect yeah
every night when my feelings sink
and you try to pull me out of it
is there any chance for us
cause when read back what we wrote
cause when i've got a lump in my throat
can we go back once-you-know-that-theres no chance for us
but i'm the perfect date
were so perfect and im
always so anxious that im being too much
and im smothering my friends and everyone i love
i distract myself from inconvenient truths
like its always been over for me and you
cause since the magic started to fade
and i've spent the past few months hoping that we're okay
ive been shaking, sobbing and unsober
begging can we please go back to last october
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know myself
02:52
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locked away in a freezer
i crawled out and found you, sticking around
should i have been buried deeper
maybe i would've never come out
even if i can't be understood
you help me understand myself
throw it all into your arms
you're waking up as well
now the landscape in my mind is shifting
we havent spoken in weeks, my memories are drifting
since the days when magic turned to worry
im finally outside the freezer lying in the slurry
even if i can't be understood
i can understand myself
throw it all into the world
even if im overwhelmed
anxious and unwound
save me from falling out
help me down
help me down
no help down
anxiously twisting around
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5. |
formative calluses
02:50
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turn up turn up, turn up the volume
drown out my ruined and unfocused brain
these feelings have a knack for echoing
and it took some time, it took some time
to be honest with myself about it
even now im not really sure
but it's time to try and mend up what's been torn
well it took some time
and my wounds are healed
i think im alright
and eventually the memories
that used to hurt
will fade away
and it took some time
and my tears are spent
so im wondering
do you feel alright?
do you feel alright?
patterns will repeat again
cuts will heal back into skin
peeling off the bandages
over and over and over and over and
i really almost thought you wouldnt want to talk
but
i think its about time i hear you tell me off
and
i know you're way too kind really wanna wound me
but im tougher now, and i wont let it ruin me
well it took some time
and my wounds are healed
do you feel alright~
to talk to me?
to talk to me?
and as my
bones start to harden
my muscles get stronger
ill lift myself up and
begin to stand taller
now all of the pain
that i used to just cry through
will subside and i wont
feel hurt when i see you
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to myself
03:02
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i feel it creeping up
is there something wrong with me
im losing my footing
im slipping im falling
naturally my thoughts will wander
apologize profusely trying not to bother
fuck it always comes out wrong
i wanna shut the fuck up i need to shut the fuck up
and slow down
sloow~ down
you dont have to bleed your heart out
you dont have to bleed your heart out
so slow down
sloow~ down
there's a passage for you to break out
smoke some weed and order takeout
there's nothing wrong with you
there's nothing wrong with you
you're not too much. it all just sucks
cause we're born into hell and the world is fucked
but, what you give away is what you need yourself
you cant be anything for no one when you're overwhelmed
take some time take a breath its mostly chemicals
all the memories you need will be there in the morning
twisting and crawling
you feel like you're falling
its okay to slow down
its okay to slow down
twisting and crawling
you feel yourself falling
its okay to slow down
its okay to slow down
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tsuchinoko radio Albany, New York
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